Give your life to my charms in the admiral's arms.

just FYI....

2008-01-31T04:55:53Z

in case you haven't noticed, i've stopped posting shit on here.....and that is mostly because i a) left LJ for a while, and b) got a new LJ.......so if ya wanna check it out, you're more than welcome. so hope to see you there......just throw me a request. <3

it's romntikroadkill

is it possible...

2007-06-20T02:10:16Z

is it possible to go insane from:
wanting it
needing it
craving it
loving it
...but not having it.

wheeee.....music game. how skilled are you???

2007-04-22T22:37:04Z

Rules:
- Put Your Playlist On Random.
- Post first Line From The First 25 Songs.
- Delete The Songs When Someone Guesses Correctly.

1. avalanche is sullen and too thin...

2. long day staring at the ceiling making friends with shadows on my wall...

3. my life is brilliant, my love is pure...

4. gotta take a little time, a little time to look around me...

5. imagine me and you, i do...

6. Come on, step inside, and you will realize...

7. yo i'll tell you what i want what i really really want...

8. i like where we are when we drive in your car...

9. i'm lyin' here on the floor where you left me...

10. if you hate me after all i say...

11. give 'em the old razzle dazzle...

12. The last straw just broke, I'm a line in your tasteless joke...

13. Moon hangs around a blade over my head...

14. i swear that i could go on forever again...

15. long lost words whisper slowly to me...

16. if i could break this spell i'd run to him today...

17. ou went to school to learn, girl things you never, never knew before...

18. all around me are familiar faces...

19. never win first place, i dont support the team...

20. i'm limited, just look at me, i'm limited...

21. i gotta regret right now...

22. (fly firefly), when i said go i never meant away...

23. i see trees of green, red roses too...

24. the symbols won't delay but the cable...

25. in the morning when i wake up...

when you get the blues, come on get rhythm!!!

2007-02-01T14:07:56Z

Artist: Johnny Cash
Song: Get Rhythm Lyrics

Hey get rhythm when you get the blues
C'mon get rhythm when you get the blues
Get a rock and roll feelin' in your bones
Get taps on your toes and get gone
Get rhythm when you get the blues

A little shoeshine boy he never gets lowdown
But he's got the dirtiest job in town
Bendin' low at the people's feet
On a windy corner of a dirty street
Well I asked him while he shined my shoes
How'd he keep from gettin' the blues
He grinned as he raised his little head
He popped his shoeshine rag and then he said

Get rhythm when you get the blues
C'mon get rhythm when you get the blues
Yes a jumpy rhythm makes you feel so fine
It'll shake all your troubles from your worried mind
Get rhythm when you get the blues

Get rhythm when you get the blues...

Get rhythm when you get the blues
C'mon get rhythm when you get the blues
Get a rock and roll feelin' in your bones
Get taps on your toes and get gone
Get rhythm when you get the blues

Well I sat and listened to the sunshine boy
I thought I was gonna jump with joy
He slapped on the shoe polish left and right
He took his shoeshine rag and he held it tight
He stopped once to wipe the sweat away
I said you mighty little boy to be a workin' that way
He said I like it with a big wide grin
Kept on a poppin' and he'd say it again

Get rhythm when you get the blues
C'mon get rhythm when you get the blues
It only cost a dime just a nickel a shoe
It does a million dollars worth of good for you
Get rhythm when you get the blues

my newest obsession: Walk the Line and Johnny Cash

hearts on fire

2007-01-17T14:11:03Z

Artist: John Cafferty
Album: Other Songs Lyrics
Title: Hearts On Fire

Print
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Silent darkness creeps into your soul
and removes the light of self-control
the cave that holds you captive has no doors
burnin' with determination
to even up the score

Chorus:
hearts on fire
strong desire
rages deep within
hearts on fire
fever's rising high
the moment of truth draws near

time will not allow you to stand still, no
silence breaks the heart and bends the will
and things that give deep passions are your sword
rules and regulations have no meaning anymore

hearts on fire
strong desire
rages deep within
hearts on fire
fever's rising high
the moment of truth is here
is here

hearts on fire
strong desire
rages deep within
hearts on fire
fever's rising high
hearts on fire
strong desire
rages deep within
(repeat 2x)

hold it now and watch the hoodwink, as i make you stop think, you think you're looking at Aquaman

2007-01-11T14:09:46Z

Barenaked Ladies rock my world

One Week
-Barenaked Ladies

It's been one week since you looked at me
Cocked your head to the side and said "I'm angry"
Five days since you laughed at me saying
"Get that together come back and see me"
Three days since the living room
I realized it's all my fault, but couldn't tell you
Yesterday you'd forgiven me
but it'll still be two days till I say I'm sorry

Hold it now and watch the hoodwink
As I make you stop, think
You'll think you're looking at Aquaman
I summon fish to the dish, although I like the Chalet Swiss
I like the sushi
'cause it's never touched a frying pan
Hot like wasabe when I bust rhymes
Big like LeAnn Rimes
Because I'm all about value
Bert Kaempfert's got the mad hits
You try to match wits, you try to hold me but I bust through
Gonna make a break and take a fake
I'd like a stinkin achin shake
I like vanilla, it's the finest of the flavours
Gotta see the show, cause then you'll know
The vertigo is gonna grow
Cause it's so dangerous,
you'll have to sign a waiver

How can I help it if I think you're funny when you're mad
Trying hard not to smile though I feel bad
I'm the kind of guy who laughs at a funeral
Can't understand what I mean?
Well, you soon will
I have a tendency to wear my mind on my sleeve
I have a history of taking off my shirt

It's been one week since you looked at me
Threw your arms in the air
and said "You're crazy"
Five days since you tackled me
I've still got the rug burns on both my knees
It's been three days since the afternoon
You realized it's not my fault
not a moment too soon
Yesterday you'd forgiven me
And now I sit back and wait til you say you're sorry

Chickity China the Chinese chicken
You have a drumstick and your brain stops tickin'
Watchin' X-Files with no lights on
We're dans la maison
I hope the Smoking Man's in this one
Like Harrison Ford I'm getting frantic
Like Sting I'm tantric
Like Snickers, guaranteed to satisfy

Like Kurasawa I make mad films
Okay, I don't make films
But if I did they'd have a Samurai
Gonna get a set a' better clubs
Gonna find the kind with tiny nubs
Just so my irons aren't always flying off the back-swing
Gotta get in tune with Sailor Moon
'Cause the cartoon has got the boom anime babes
That make me think the wrong thing

How can I help it if I think you're funny when you're mad
Tryin' hard not to smile though I feel bad
I'm the kind of guy who laughs at a funeral
Can't understand what I mean?
Well, you soon will
I have a tendency to wear my mind on my sleeve
I have a history of losing my shirt

It's been one week since you looked at me
Dropped your arms to your sides
and said "I'm sorry"
Five days since I laughed at you and said
"You just did just what I thought you were gonna do"
Three days since the living room
We realized we're both to blame,
but what could we do?
Yesterday you just smiled at me
Cause it'll still be two days till we say we're sorry

It'll still be two days till we say we're sorry
It'll still be two days till we say we're sorry
Birchmount Stadium, home of the Robbie

NEW PROFILE

2007-01-09T15:21:26Z

ok, so, after like, a year and a long while, or however long it's been, i finally grew up and completely changed my LJ profile. as soon as i get the chance, there's going to be more info about me, and of course like, one or two quizzes, but smaller ones.

but check it out. it's cool. it has a very inspirational quote there. and this quote is my favorite right now.

lol

then leave me comments letting me know you looked, and letting me know what you think. also, leave me comments, because i feel lonely here.

<333

begin, end, enemy, friend, heaven, hell, sick, well

2007-01-09T15:09:41Z

"Sweet Religion"
Imogen Heap

When my body wants to go
Tell me will my mind and soul
Live on and on forever
Am I on another level
A learning vessel of several
Lessons to make me more cleverer

My sweet little religion
My sweet little religion you mean everything to me
My sweet little religion
My sweet little religion how does it feel

Written in that book of love
Does it say your name above
The name by which they call me
And is it written in liquid red

'Cause nothing else will do instead for reassuring eternity

Will you be there when I need you?

Begin end enemy friend heaven hell sick well
Truth lies husbands and wives, whisper shout in out in out
Laughter cry ask reply - good bad happy sad
Right wrong outcast belong, caged free you and me

You have the answer to all of these

i'd do anything for you!!!

2006-11-29T14:06:16Z

I'd Do Anything
Oliver

I'd do anything for you dear
anything
for you mean everything
to me

I know that
I'd go anywhere for your smile
anywhere
for your smile
everywhere I see

Would you lace my shoe?
Anything
Paint your face bright blue?
Anything
Catch a kangaroo?
Anything
Go to Timbuctu?
And back again

I'd risk everything for one kiss
everything
Yes I'd do anything
Anything?
Anything for you

[love this song]

if you like pina coladas and getting caught in the rain

2006-11-14T14:08:02Z

i LOVE this song. its so cool. and so much fun.

Pina Coladas
Rupert Holmes

I was tired of my lady
We'd been together too long
Like a worn-out recording
Of a favorite song
So while she lay there sleeping
I read the paper in bed
And in the personal columns
There was this letter I read

"If you like Pina Coladas
And getting caught in the rain
If you're not into yoga
If you have half a brain
If you'd like making love at midnight
In the dunes on the Cape
Then I'm the love that you've looked for
Write to me and escape."

I didn't think about my lady
I know that sounds kind of mean
But me and my old lady
Have fallen into the same old dull routine
So I wrote to the paper
Took out a personal ad
And though I'm nobody's poet
I thought it wasn't half bad

"Yes I like Pina Coladas
And getting caught in the rain
I'm not much into health food
I am into champagne
I've got to meet you by tomorrow noon
And cut through all this red-tape
At a bar called O'Malley's
Where we'll plan our escape."

So I waited with high hopes
And she walked in the place
I knew her smile in an instant
I knew the curve of her face
It was my own lovely lady
And she said, "Oh it's you."
Then we laughed for a moment
And I said, "I never knew."

That you like Pina Coladas
Getting caught in the rain
And the feel of the ocean
And the taste of champagne
If you'd like making love at midnight
In the dunes of the Cape
You're the lady I've looked for
Come with me and escape

angelofmusik89 @ 2006-10-31T09:32:00

2006-10-31T13:33:51Z

survey from teh maya papaya

2006-10-29T13:26:20Z

Body

What insecurities do you have about your appearance? my body mostly
If you could change one thing about your face, what would it be? skin. def.
If you could change one thing about your body, what would it be? the flabby thing that food goes in
Do you ever compare your physical self to other people? probably a little too much.
Does your appearance hold you back? i try not to let it

Soul
Do you believe in God? yes.
Who do you believe God is? i believe that God is God. he is his own being and he watches over us all.
Why are we here? i really dont know the answer to that question. but we got here through evolution
Where did the world come from? uhm.....the way that the other planets were formed? scientifically speaking
Is there both good and evil? duh. the world could not exist without yin and yang
Which do you prefer? depends on the situation and my mood. lol
Do you wish you were more spiritual? i suppose
What is the key religious experience in your life? what do you mean by that? i;m not sure
Conversion, etc? james converted me. lol. he taught me how to love jesus
Where are you going when you die? uhm.....haha.....i dont know. i leave that up to the big man upstairs
Are you sure? nothing is ever for certain
If you died right now, what regrets would you have? many, many regrets
What do you believe a God wants you to do in life? i think God just wants us all to love him and love each other. so i'm going to do my best, but otherwise, i don't know, so im going to just roll with it.
Do you believe things happen for a reason? sure
Is it just fate and luck or are there miracles and Divine Providence? uhm.....i think that there are miracles and Divine Providence, but i also believe in fate
What steps do you take now to become more spiritual? i pray every night before i go to bed. i should probably start going to church again

Heart
Do you believe in love? very much
Are you in love? yes yes yes yes yes
How do you know? well, apart from the fact that i can't live without him, and i can see myself living my entire life with him by my side......
If you're in love, with whom? james!!!
What initially drew you to that person? his personality, his amazing looks, his attitude that says "i dont give a fuck what you think of me"....and then there was just an instant attraction
What about the person disappointed you? we all have issues......dont worry about it
What about them was a pleasant surprise? i can watch chick flicks with him...lol
Are you truly happy with them? chyeah....still very happy
If you could change one thing about their face, what would it be? absolutely nuffin
If you could change one thing about their body, what would it be? again, nuffin
What about them annoys you? hmmm.......not sure....there were a bunch of things, but he stopped doing them
What about them makes you happy? everything.....especially his love and loyalty towards me
Could you love this person forever? and ever and ever and ever
Are you sure? very, very sure
Do you trust them? very very much
What doubts do you have about them? i dont think i really have any
Is it really love, or is it lust or infatuation or a mere fantasy? it's really love....if you knew all the shit we've been through, and we're still together, yeah...it's love
Would you do anything for them? yes
Even die for them?any day
Do you even really know them? everything about him

Mind and Spirit

Do you feel free? yuppers
What makes you depressed? stupid shit
What drives you nuts? fucking ridiculous drama
What stresses you out? damn drama and school shit
Do you think you need therapy? i've found ways of dealing with shit without the help of someone else....but i have been to therapy before
Do you think you need Divine help? i think i'm ok for now.
What relaxes you? james, music
Who can you totally be yourself around?james, friends, family
Do you believe you have a spiritual gift? not really
If so, what? not really
Do you believe in ghosts and spirits? no
Have you seen or felt any? no
Talked to any? no
Do you believe in "mind over matter"? sure...why not
Do you feel you could be more benevolent to others? probably
What social problems do you feel led to help correct? many, many things
What colors relax you? black, blue
What blocks your concentration? many, many, many things
What do you think about a lot? my baby
who do you think about a lot? james
Any bad memories that haunt you? yeah.....let's try almost all of waldorf?
Deep, dark secret you've never told anybody? yeah
Biggest fear? losing my baby forever
Hardest things you've had to overcome? oh man, dont even fucking get me started
Where did your strength come from? friends, james, family
Who relies on you? many, many people
Who do you feel spiritually connected to? james, maya, rachael
What makes you feel totally broken and hurt? fucking bullshit people who you THOUGHT were your friends but then they fucking turn around and fucking cricify you because they dont REALLY give a flying fuck about you
Are you honest with the person you are closest to? very, very honest
What do you feel guilty about? right now? nothing
What confessions would put your mind at ease? hmmm.......prolly teling people what i REALLY think of them...so i'm not sitting here stewing about it
Do only the strong survive? nope....the weak survive too because they have the strong to protect them

Future

Where do you see yourself in 5 years (location)? college...maybe baltimore
Who do you see yourself with?james
What do you see yourself doing? photo, acting, clothing design
Are you happy? quite
Are you in love? yesh
Are you loved? yesh
Would you cheat on the person you loved? NEVER
What if they cheated on you? that would be sad.....but me the forgiving person i am, would probably forgive them
Would you want children? How many? CHYEAH.....uhm.....2 or 3? 4 at the very maximum
Pets? doggies!!!
What would you want to do besides work? acting, dacing, photography
How would you spend time with the one you love? many different ways
How would you spend time with your kids? prolly doing things....amusement parks and shit like that. it all depends on where i live

MESSAGE TO EVERYONE

2006-10-28T19:42:22Z

READ AND DO
ok, seriously people. if you actually know me, you know that im not the type of person who likes to be subtly bicthed at, or talked about behind my back (if you went to waldork, you'd know why).
so basically, if you have something to say to me, dont be all like "someone is being mean" or "everyone get over it". no. that doesnt fucking fly with me. you wanna say something, then you should have the damn courage to fucking call me and say it to my fucking face. dont fucking tiptoe through the motherfucking daisies. you wanna bitch me out, call me and bitch me the fuck out to my face. lay it on me. i dont care. just know that if you so choose, i will lay it back on just as hard.

dont be a fucking pussy who's too chicken shit to voice your opinion.

you will never amount to anything.

so if you wanna say something, say it.
otherwise

FUCK OFF

if you have something to say to someone, but you dont have enough fucking balls to come out and say it.....you have no FUCKING right to say it at all.

angelofmusik89 @ 2006-10-28T12:53:00

2006-10-28T17:54:59Z

xfoto_fiendx

thats my new el jay for my photographs. check it out!!!

angelofmusik89 @ 2006-10-25T08:10:00

2006-10-25T13:11:21Z

(<a href="http://pyesetz.furtopia.org/meme-3col-DeathNote.html">Click here</a> to post your own answers for this meme.) <table style="background-color: white" border=1 cellspacing=0 cellpadding=6>
<col width="33%">
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<tr valign=top>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I miss somebody right now.  (i miss my baby. he's an hour away.....*sniff*)</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I don't watch much TV these days.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I own lots of books.</td>
</tr>
<tr valign=top>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I wear glasses or contact lenses.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I love to play video games.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I've tried marijuana.</td>
</tr>
<tr valign=top>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I've watched porn movies.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I believe honesty is usually the best policy.</td>
</tr>
<tr valign=top>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I curse sometimes.  ((fucking every day))</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.  (very very much)</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.  (i should start)</td>
</tr>
</table><lj-cut text="it goes on...">* * * * *<table style="background-color: white" border=1 cellspacing=0 cellpadding=6>
<col width="33%">
<col width="33%">
<col width="33%">
<tr valign=top>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I have broken someone's bones.  (do my own count? lol)</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I hate the rain.</td>
</tr>
<tr valign=top>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I'm paranoid at times.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I need/want money right now.</td>
</tr>
<tr valign=top>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I love sushi.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I talk really, really fast.  (sometimes. lol)</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I have fresh breath in the morning.</td>
</tr>
<tr valign=top>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I have long hair.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I have lost money in Las Vegas.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I have at least one sibling.</td>
</tr>
<tr valign=top>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I was born in a country outside of the U.S.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.  (chyeah....fake nails = love)</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.</td>
</tr>
<tr valign=top>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I like the way that I look.  (usually)</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I have lied to a good friend in the last 6 months.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I am usually pessimistic.</td>
</tr>
<tr valign=top>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I have a lot of mood swings.  (sometimes)</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I think prostitution should be legalized.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I slept with a roommate.</td>
</tr>
<tr valign=top>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I have a hidden talent.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have.  (hahaha......sometimes.....wait, usually)</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I have a lot of friends.</td>
</tr>
<tr valign=top>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I have pecked someone of the same sex.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I enjoy talking on the phone. </td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.</td>
</tr>
<tr valign=top>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I love to shop and/or window shop.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I'm obsessed with my Xanga or Livejournal.  (more like, obsessed w/ myspace...but i <3 lj too)</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.</td>
</tr>
<tr valign=top>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I have a mobile phone.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I've rejected someone before.</td>
</tr>
<tr valign=top>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I currently like/love someone.  (james = the love of my life)</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I want to have children in the future.</td>
</tr>
<tr valign=top>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I have changed a diaper before.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I've called the cops on a friend before.  (ive come close....)</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I'm not allergic to anything.  (yeah baby!!!)</td>
</tr>
<tr valign=top>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I have a lot to learn.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I am shy around the opposite sex.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I'm online 24/7, even as an away message.</td>
</tr>
<tr valign=top>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I have at least 5 away messages saved.  (try like 50 something i think.)</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I have tried alcohol or drugs before.  (alcohol.....not seriously. just like, a glass of champagne at my cousin's wedding. no drugs tho.)</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past.</td>
</tr>
<tr valign=top>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I own the "South Park" movie.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I have avoided assignments at work/school to be on Xanga or Livejournal.  (y-y-y-yeah)</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I enjoy some country music.</td>
</tr>
<tr valign=top>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I would die for my best friends.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I'm obsessive, and often a perfectionist.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I have used my sexuality to advance my career.</td>
</tr>
<tr valign=top>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I think Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.  (and i get to dress in costume and be crazy!!!)</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I have dated a close friend's ex.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I am happy at this moment.</td>
</tr>
<tr valign=top>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I'm obsessed with guys.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ Democrat.  (HELLS YEAH BITCHEZZZ.......LIBERAL UNTIL DEATH.)</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × Republican.</td>
</tr>
<tr valign=top>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I don't even know what I am.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I am punk rockish.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I go for older guys/girls, not younger.</td>
</tr>
<tr valign=top>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I study for tests most of the time.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I can work on a car.</td>
</tr>
<tr valign=top>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I love my job(s).</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I am comfortable with who I am right now.  (never been more comfortable)</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I have more than just my ears pierced.  (not anymore.......*sniff*)</td>
</tr>
<tr valign=top>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I walk barefoot wherever I can.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I have jumped off a bridge.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I love sea turtles.</td>
</tr>
<tr valign=top>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I spend ridiculous amounts of money on makeup.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I plan on achieving a major goal/dream.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I am proficient on a musical instrument.</td>
</tr>
<tr valign=top>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I hate office jobs.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I went to college out of state.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I am adopted.</td>
</tr>
<tr valign=top>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I am a pyro. </td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I have thrown up from crying too much.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I have been intentionally hurt by people that I loved.</td>
</tr>
<tr valign=top>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I fall for the worst people.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I adore bright colours.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I usually like covers better than originals. </td>
</tr>
<tr valign=top>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I hate chain theme restaurants like Applebees and TGIFridays.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I can pick up things with my toes.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I can't whistle.</td>
</tr>
<tr valign=top>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I have ridden/owned a horse.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I still have every journal I've ever written in.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I talk in my sleep.</td>
</tr>
<tr valign=top>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I've often thought that I was born in the wrong century.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I wear a toe ring.</td>
</tr>
<tr valign=top>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I have a tattoo.  (I WISH!!!! just one more year.)</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I can't stand at LEAST one person that I work with.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I am a caffeine junkie.</td>
</tr>
<tr valign=top>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I am completely tree-huggy spiritual, and I'm not ashamed at all.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ If I knew I would get away with it, I would commit at least one murder.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical, the better.</td>
</tr>
<tr valign=top>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I enjoy a nice glass of wine with dinner.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I'm an artist.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I am ambidextrous.</td>
</tr>
<tr valign=top>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I sleep with so many stuffed animals, I can hardly fit on my bed.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × If it weren't for having to see other people naked, I'd live in a nudist colony.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I have terrible teeth.</td>
</tr>
<tr valign=top>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I hate my toes.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I did this meme even though I wasn't tagged by the person who took it before me.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I have more friends on the internet than in real life.</td>
</tr>
<tr valign=top>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I have lived in either three different states or countries.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I am extremely flexible.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I love hugs more than kisses.  (its pretty even)</td>
</tr>
<tr valign=top>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I want to own my own business.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I smoke.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I spend way too much time on the computer than on anything else.</td>
</tr>
<tr valign=top>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ Nobody has ever said I'm normal.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ Sad movies, games, and the like can cause a trickle of tears every now and then.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I am proficient in the use of many types of firearms and combat weapons.  (i wanna shoot a gun!!!)</td>
</tr>
<tr valign=top>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I like the way women look in stylized men's suits.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I don't like it when people are unpleased or seem unpleased with me.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I have been described as a dreamer or likely to have my head up in the clouds.</td>
</tr>
<tr valign=top>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I have played strip poker with someone else before.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I have had emotional problems for which I have sought professional help.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I believe in ghosts and the paranormal.</td>
</tr>
<tr valign=top>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I can't stand being alone.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I have at least one obsession at any given time.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I weigh myself, pee/poo, and then weigh myself again.</td>
</tr>
<tr valign=top>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I consistently spend way too much money on obsessions-of-the-moment.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I'm a judgmental asshole.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I'm a HUGE drama-queen.</td>
</tr>
<tr valign=top>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I have travelled on more than one continent.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I sometimes wish my father would just disappear.  (try both parents)</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I need people to tell me I'm good at something in order to feel that I am.</td>
</tr>
<tr valign=top>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I am a Libertarian.  (maybe? i dont know)</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I can speak more than one language.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I can fall asleep even if the whole room is as noisy as it can be.</td>
</tr>
<tr valign=top>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I would rather read than watch TV.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I like reading fact more than fiction.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I have pulled an all-nighter on an assignment I was given a month to do.</td>
</tr>
<tr valign=top>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I have no piercings.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I have spent the night in a train station or other public place.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I have been so upset over my physical gender that I cried.</td>
</tr>
<tr valign=top>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I once spent Christmas completely alone because there was a miscommunication on which parent was supposed to have me that night.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ There have been times when I have wondered "Why was I born?" and may/may not have cried over it.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I like most animals better than most people.</td>
</tr>
<tr valign=top>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I own a collection of retro games consoles.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × The thought of physical exercise makes me shiver.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I have hit someone with a dead fish.</td>
</tr>
<tr valign=top>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I am compulsively honest.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I was born with a congenital birth defect that has never been repaired.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I have danced topless in front of dozens of complete strangers.</td>
</tr>
<tr valign=top>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I have gone from wishing I was a girl to revelling in being a boy to feeling like a girl again in the span of five minutes, and not cared a whit for my actual sex.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I am unashamedly bisexual, and have different motivations for my desires for different genders.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I sometimes won't sleep a whole night or eat a whole day because I forget to.</td>
</tr>
<tr valign=top>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I find it impossible to get to sleep without some kind of music on.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I dislike milk.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I obsessively wash my hands.</td>
</tr>
<tr valign=top>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I always carry something significant around with me.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × Sometimes I'd rather wear a wig in day-to-day life than use my own hair.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I've pushed myself to become more self-aware and thereby more aware of others.</td>
</tr>
<tr valign=top>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × Even though I live on my own I still cry sometimes because I miss my mother.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I hand wrote all the HTML tags in this document.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I've liked something which a majority of people claimed was either bad or weird.</td>
</tr>
<tr valign=top>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I have been clinically dead for a brief period of time.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ Instead of feeling sympathy/empathy with people and their problems, I simply become annoyed.  (only after i deal with ppls shit for a long time and then it just becomes ludicris)</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I participate/have participated in auto drag races and won.</td>
</tr>
<tr valign=top>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I do not 'get' most comedy acts.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I don't think strippers are money-greedy or slutty for dancing.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I don't like to chew gum.</td>
</tr>
<tr valign=top>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I am obsessed with history/historical things and can't wait for someone to build a time machine so I can be the first to use it.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I can never remember for the life of me where I parked the car.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I had the TEEN ANGST thing going for at least 2-3 years.</td>
</tr>
<tr valign=top>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I wish people would be more empathic and honest with each other.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I play Dungeons and Dragons weekly.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I love to sing.  (more than ANYTHING)</td>
</tr>
<tr valign=top>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I want to live in my mother's basement when I grow up.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I have a custom-built computer.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I want to create a certain someone's babies, even though there's a 0% possiblity of ever achieving it.</td>
</tr>
<tr valign=top>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I would be in a relationship with one of my pets if they were human.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I've gone skinny-dipping.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I've performed in three plays.</td>
</tr>
<tr valign=top>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I enjoy burritos.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I'm Irish and loving it.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I have a thing for redheads.</td>
</tr>
<tr valign=top>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I am a twin!</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ Most of the times, I'd rather do something intellectual instead of doing something generically 'fun'.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × Once I set out to finish something, I always stay at it until it is completed before I move on to something else.</td>
</tr>
<tr valign=top>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I wish there were a way to erase past mistakes.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I sleep more than 12 hours a day.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I wish I could be prouder of what I've accomplished, but it's never enough.</td>
</tr>
<tr valign=top>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I need more time to myself.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I wish I was more open-minded.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I hope that I go really prematurely grey.</td>
</tr>
<tr valign=top>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I download songs from the internet.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I've just reenacted chapter 58 of Death Note with my best friend.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I say random things to freak people out.</td>
</tr>
<tr valign=top>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I'm still a little mad about the ending of Death Note.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I love playing Truth or Dare.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I love listening to slow music, but I hate singing to it.</td>
</tr>
<tr valign=top>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ Music helps me remember that I am not alone.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × Playing my favorite sport makes me temporarily forget my problems.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I think this survey is particularly long.</td>
</tr>
<tr valign=top>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I prefer my LJ friends to my real-life ones.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I can only hate someone that I love.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I've ordered an extra two shots of espresso to an Americano at Starbucks.</td>
</tr>
</table></lj-cut>

cooommmeeennnntttsss

2006-10-25T12:51:49Z

Comment with your username and I'll give you an honest compliment. Then post this in your journal and spread the love.

you're protruding on what's mine, and you're taking up my time

2006-10-25T03:47:58Z

wow...

you know what, all i have to say is....there is no way to describe how enraged i am at this point......

you know what....

fuck this.
fuck you.

i'm done.

i don't need your fucking approval anymore.

40% OCD...stolen from shayster

2006-10-17T12:33:03Z

[x] Nothing is wrong with having things alphabetized.
[x] You don’t think anything is ever really perfect.
[ ] You have to know everything.
[x] Everything has a place.
[x] Untied shoes bug you.
Total:4

[ ] If you’re walking through a store and something is off a rack you put it back.
[x] Things don’t have to be perfect they just have to be the right way according to you.
[ ] You like vacuuming or mopping… it just makes the floor look better.
[ ] If a cleaning product has ever blown your mind
[ ] You think hot tubs are “unsanitary”
Total: 1

[x] You have ever categorized something.
[x] Typos drive you nuts
[x] You hate misspellings.
[x] If there is something wrong with someone you will make it better.
[x] You have ever corrected a teacher.
Total: 5
Grand Total: 10

Now count the checked boxes and multiply that number times 4.
I am __% OCD:

yes i've dreamt of you too

2006-10-03T13:11:32Z

"Lips Of An Angel"

honey why you calling me so late?
It's kinda hard to talk right now
Honey why are you crying is everything okay
I gotta whisper cause I can't be too loud
Well, my girl's in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved on
It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak
And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

It's funny that you're calling me tonight
And yes I've dreamt of you too
And does he know you're talking to me
Will it start a fight
No I don't think she has a clue
Well my girl's in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved on
It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak
And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak
And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel
(And I never wanna say goodbye)
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel
honey why you calling me so late?

angelofmusik89 @ 2006-09-13T08:07:00

2006-09-13T13:13:19Z

SURVEY: IF A MOVIE WAS MADE OF YOUR LIFE, WHAT WOULD THE SOUNDTRACK BE?

- - - - - - - Your Life: The Soundtrack - - - - - - - -
So, here's how it works:
Open your music player (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, etc).
Put it on shuffle.
Press play.
For every question type the song that's on.
When you go to a new question press the next button.
Ready? GO!
- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -

Opening Credits:
Detective, No Doubt

Waking Up:
There She Goes, The Cranberries

Falling in Love:
You Spin Me Right Round, Marilyn Manson

Fight scene:
Battery, Metallica

Breaking up:
When Will This End? - Korn

Getting back together:
Better Days - Goo Goo Dolls (heartheartheart GGDs)

Secret Love:
Nobody Move, Nobody Get Hurt - We Are Scientists

Life's okay:
Stop! In The Name Of Love - The Supremes

Mental breakdown:
Hey Jude, The Beatles

Driving:
Sad But True, Metallica

Flashback:
Redneck Woman, Gretchen Wilson

Partying:
until the day i die, story of the year

Happy dance:
since you been gone, kelly clarkson

Regretting:
invinceble - pat benatar

Long night alone:
justify, scott stapp

Death scene:
your song, elton john

Ending credits:
you set me free, michelle branch

angelofmusik89 @ 2006-09-13T07:40:00

2006-09-13T13:04:33Z

so basically, this was like, the BEST summer in history. The first half was spent hanging with friends (rachael came up for a week yay!!!), swimming, watching movies, and just generally having fun. Chillin' with james's friends is mad fun. they are so freakin' random. lol. and chillin' with james A LOT. then august came, and i was at camp for 4 weeks. i have some of the BEST friends in the world there. they dont judge you in any way. camp is honestly the only place where you can make a complete dumbass of yourself, and embarrass yourself into the floor, and be considered the coolest kid on the block. i LOVE it. and everyone cares about you. so much. if you're having a bad day, there are like, 25 people who will dedicate themselves to making you feel better. it's so nice having such a great support system like that. and being an almost-counsellor is amazing. the kids really look up to you, and you just feel so important. it's amazing. not to mention that it means that your curfew is a) an hour and a half later than everyone else's and b) they dont care too much if you're out after curfew either. lol. it was so much fun. both of the LIT cabins (boys and girls) would meet outside at like, 11:15 and all of us would just chill under the stars talking, me giveing everyone a back massage, because im amazing at it apparently (thanks shay for the tips in 8th grade. i stole 1 or two from you. dont worry, i give you credit for them). it's absolutely amazing.

then when i got back i was met with dramadramadrama. which was fun. in short, james and i are on hiatus for a while. he's going to Herkimer County Community College, which is an hour away, so he doesnt want for things to be unfair for me, because he wouldnt be able to come down for any of concerts and all that stuff. and also, he finally admits that he has a real problem w/ his anger, so he wants to fix himself first. so we're on a break. but i really miss him. i want to be with him again. but im doing ok. i've become a lot more independant than before. ya'll would be proud of me.

then, holy crap, it's september. JUNIOR YEAR BABY!!!!! and i have a feeling i'm going to be swamped. here's my class list:

~ American Studies (social studies and english class combo. meets everyday. it's really cool)
~ Chemistry
~ Math
~ French 3H
~ Latin 4H
~ Ladies First (all girls choir. ROCKS MY WORLD!!!)
~ Health Fitness (fall semester), Lifetime (spring sem.)
~ Health (spring)

so yeah. and then I'm co-president of Visibility, our school's GSA (gay/straight alliance) and STAND which is our women's rights group st school. basically we just raise awareness on things like breast cancer, domestic violence, heart disease, and stuff like that. it's awesome. we're gonna be donating money and volunteering at battered women's shelters. it ROCKS. and i'm also in Y2Y (youth to youth) which is peer educating peers about the effects of drugs and alcohol and promoting drug, alcohol and tobacco free fun!!! yay!!! and hopefully i'll be able to join the Amnesty International club. but if it's on the same day as visibility, i cant.

so yeah, life is pretty rockin' right now. i miss all my camp buddies, and i miss all my baltimorians!!!!!!!

ok, i hafta go to american studies in like, two minutes.

so yeah. first real update in a loooooong while.
PLEASE LEAVE ME COMMENTS SO THAT I KNOW YOU STILL LOVE ME!!! lol.

9/11

2006-09-11T13:09:14Z

remember today, and all the people who died, all the people who lived, and all those who helped to clear away debris, who helped to try and save people, and who tried to put out the fires.

Happy Birthday Ira!!!

2006-05-11T13:05:22Z

HAppy Birthday Ira!!!!!

50%

2006-05-05T13:11:14Z

50 Stereotypes about girls

[x] 1. we love axe body spray

[x] 2. we're as afraid of you as you are of us

[x] 3. we try to impress you most of the time

[x] 4. we flirt a lot if we like you

[ ] 5. we flirt a lot. period.

[ ] 6. the only things we like more than you are shoes

[ ] 7. we don't understand "guy talk"

[x] 8. we LOVE hugs

[x] 9. we hate it when you're ignorant

[x] 10. we're not that girly all the time

[ ] 11. we hate ................ action movies

[ ] 12. we giggle 24/7

[x] 13. we are scared of almost anything

[ ] 14. we don't always like the "tall dark and handsome" guy

[ ] 15. AIM is our life

[ ] 16. you see our myspace layout? its our 865412875th one

[x] 17. we ARE self concious

[ ] 18. our personalities change in high school

[x] 19. we have celebrity crushes

[ ] 20. we're scared of clowns

[x] 21. and we're scared of the dark...except when we are with you

[x] 22. and we're scared of spiders

[x] 23. we LOVE horror movies....with you

[x] 25. we sometimes take things a lot more seriously than we should

[x] 26. we run around our house in tank tops and our underwear

[x] 27. During sleep overs, we talk about the guys we'd go out with, the guys we are going out with, and about the guys we've gone out with.

[x] 28. we're not very athletic

[x] 29. we trust you more than most of our girl friends

[ ] 30. we are conceited, we just don't like to admit it

[ ] 31. we cover ourselves in foundation

[x] 32. no matter how nice we are, we CAN be bitches

[ ] 33. we LOVE being scared

[X] 34. cuddling is our specialty

[x] 35. we love cars

[ ] 36. we hate a lot of people

[ ] 37. we cat fight

[ ] 38. we scream when we're mad

[ ] 39. we squeal when we break a nail

[ ] 40. we BREAK things when we're mad

[ ] 42. the food in expensive restaurants always tastes better

[ ] 43. bubble baths soothe us

[x] 44. when we don't know what to say on the phone, we sigh

[x] 45. we CAN BE serious people

[x] 46. our hair is part of who we are

[X] 47. we can eat a lot

[ ] 48. we hate cartoons

[ ] 49. our phones are one of our best friends

[ ] 50. we love the color pink

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And I'm just the girl next door.....

2006-04-28T13:02:57Z

omg, this is SUCH a good song. i <3 it.

Girl Next Door
-Saving Jane

Small town homecoming queen
Shes the star in this scene
Theres no way to deny shes lovley
Perfect skin perfect hair
Perfumed hearts everywhere
Tell myself that inside shes ugly
Maybe I'm just jealous
I can't help but hate her
Secretly I wonder if my boyfriend wants to date her

She is the prom queen I'm in the marching band
She is a cheerleader I'm sittin in the stands
She gets the top bunk I'm sleepin on the floor
Shes Miss America and I'm just the girl next door

Senior class president
She must be heaven sent
She was never the last one standing
A backseat debutaunt
Everything that you want
Never to harsh or too demanding
Maybe I'll admit it
I'm a little bitter
Everybody loves her but I just wanna hit her

She is the prom queen I'm in the marching band
She is a cheerleader I'm sittin in the stands
She gets the top bunk I'm sleepin on the floor
Shes Miss America and I'm just the girl next door
Oh an I'm just the girl next door

I don't know why I'm feelin sorry for myself
I spend all my time wishin that I was someone else

She is the prom queen I'm in the marching band
She is a cheerleader I'm sittin in the stands
I get A little bit she gets a little more
Shes Miss America and... she's Miss America
I'm just the girl next door...